Happy belated Mother's Day. Why not have a better way to celebrate than talking about being wrong? #MumsTheWord

Concerning the process of reviewing or making a video, the chunk that consumes the most amount of time for me is by far the scripting, the process of making sure my point comes across to people in the clearest way possible. The following statement I'm pretty sure is speaking for most people who strive to make top-notch content but constantly struggle to meet the equilibrium of consistency: it's really time-consuming to make videos.

Some complete tasks faster than others, some might not, but speaking strictly for my case, it takes a considerable amount of hours and #effort (aha, see what I did there?). I'm sure most anime reviewers initially assumed it would be a breeze, only to be sorely mistaken when you began the shuddering process of putting clips together... We've all been there.

In short, I have an unwarranted fear of being wrong. Then again, who doesn't? The unease of being called out on something on public domain, the mental downward spiral as you tumble to the depths of failure as your mind begins to conjure hordes of faceless heads laughing behind your back, the moment your life flashes before your eyes only for your worth on this planet to be tested through this one video you toiled over.

Yeah, that feeling. Sorry, was that too extreme?

We've all been in that situation before and wholeheartedly wish not be forced into that scenario, even if the experience can better you while building character. So in order to prevent this from happening on any one of my videos in the future, I obsessively loom over and constantly rewrite my scripts to make it water-tight, to ensure myself that there are no visible leaks. To give context, my Psycho-Pass 2 video I've re-watched season 1 of Psycho-Pass twice and it's sequel four times so I don't overlook anything. "Wait, I didn't catch that part earlier, I need to see that scene again", "Anything else I missed?", or even, "Did the director's vision pan out successfully in my eyes?", and the list continues as I furiously ask myself ceaselessly.

Can it be pointless to re-watch a series that many times even though your opinion's already solidified after the first time? Absolutely. However as long as it contributes to becoming better at what I do, then by all means I'm prepared to buckle down.

So... what's the thesis of this blog post, exactly? Quite frankly, there is none. Maybe it's a sub-conscious way of relaying to my followers/subscribers on why my Zankyou no Terror video's taking an obscene amount of time. Early on when tackling this project I promised myself if I'm going to face a controversial subject head on, I want to make sure I bring all of my ammunition to the table. After all, one can be never too prepared, and nothing's more disappointing when revisiting an older video and feeling the torrential wave of regrets wash through as you begin to point out every single thing wrong throughout the duration, big or small.

However if there's one thing to take away from this writeup, it's to not shy away from being corrected, as much as I'm contradicting my earlier statements. It's perfectly alright to trip and falter as we catch our balance since everyone has their fair share of embarrassments littered all over the Internet (thanks, Facebook). But if you're an incessant paranoid like I am, the best way to counter it would be to create content that you feel will leave you with no regrets. Feeling slightly unsure about your next script? Let a friend take a look at it, you never know what a different lens can bring insight into. Uninspired and stuck? Close the window, do something else than staring at your screen wishing that the wisdom of Athena will strike upon you any second.

Nonetheless, this is a process everyone must eventually overcome.

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